Nic blogging: Off the wagon and back on
Let’s just say I’ve been having a rough time of late. For once it isn’t too many irons in the fire, but the other stuff in life.
My kids were with me from Thursday until Monday afternoon. The stress was really intense. With all the other stuff going on, I just caved. I bought a pack of smokes on Monday afternoon.
I had a sense of relief and personal disgust. The smell brought me back to when I first started smoking. I didn’t smoke a lot at first, then I took off like gang busters. By last night the pack was gone.
And it’s going to stay gone.
I thought about it. I want to be a non-smoker. I want to take care of my health, and my kids’ health. A new friend told me that smoking was an issue. Well, it is isn’t it for a lot of people. The eeeww I don’t want to hang out with smokers. And the smoke-us interruptus during gatherings (inside). Pause the movie to smoke. Smoke after dinner. Smoke on the phone. Yeah.
It’s still tough, but I think my slip has steeled my resolve. Well, I hope so.
Comments Off